Mrs Jo-Anne Meadows
P O Box 253
Warners Bay
NSW 2282
Tuesday 4th December 2018
Dear
Great
to hear from you again, life here is ok not great but ok, sometimes
our lives are so busy that we don't seem to have the time to sit and
write a letter.
Yes
Natasha & Blain have settled into their new home, Natasha is
still painting the house one room at a time, it is nice having both
of them living close by.
My
state of mind was improving slowly but I have had set back, last
Thursday there was another incident between Blain & Leo. The
whole thing got out of hand and I told my mum all about it Thursday
night and mentioned it to her on Friday morning as well. Well my
sister Sue heard us talking and she told her daughters Kelli &
Heather and that got back to Natasha who was more then pissed.. All
in all the whole incident caused me a lot of grief and caused me to
shed a lot of tears and feel like I caused a whole lot of trouble.
I
am sleeping better but not great, although I do still wake up a
number of times during the night. Although I am having a real
problem with restlessness, it isn't just at night or with just my
legs but all day and my whole body. I spoke to the GP about the
problem this morning and he has increased then medication I take for
it from 1 tablet to 2 tablets a day.
Since
my last letter, I had to go and see my GP to get my yearly medical
review done but the doctor refused to fill it in, he said I shouldn't
be driving. I felt numb when I left the surgery but I am getting
there, it is what it is. I now have a photo ID card instead of a
licence.
I
had a birthday on Friday 16th
November the night before my birthday I had a break down it was
caused by Leo having a melt down and trashing his bedroom throwing
things around and hitting the wall. What caused his melt down I
really don't understand it had something to do with Blain though.
I
ended up not just crying but sobbing and it wasn't the first time I
cried on Thursday, in fact I cried a fair bit on Thursday and most of
the time I had no idea why I was crying.
Tim
told me he is worried about my health and through tears I replied
that so was I at night I suffer from restlessness kind of like
restless leg syndrome but it affects my breathing, when I lay down I
feel like I can't breath and I have to get up and walk around then go
back to bed and try again. I would do this 3 or 4 times before I
would manage to get to sleep.
I
have since realized that I should be taking the
medication for the restlessness 2hrs earlier then I was, taking it
earlier has helped but I was still having a lot of problems with
restlessness but yesterday when I saw the GP he increased the
restlessness medication from 1to 2 tablets. So last night I slept
through the night, fingers cross it continues to be the case.
It
will be a while before we take another cruise, Tim and I talked it
over and decided because of how bad dad's health is and decided that
it might not be wise to go away.
My
parents are well, dad is driving mum crazy asking every day how does
he get his licence back, as it has been suspended on medical grounds,
we all know he will never get it back but he doesn't understand.
He
says every day that the GP shouldn't have said he can't drive, mum
has explained over and over that he isn't well enough and he gets
very confused at times.
Many
nights dad will ask mum who's house they are in because he doesn't
think it is their house, even though they have lived their since May
1980.
He
also often thinks there are strangers in his bed and asks mum who are
those people in our bed, there is no one in the bed.
Last
week there was another incident between Blain & Leo it was a bad
incident both accused each other of lying and Natasha really went off
her head accusing Leo of being in the wrong. Well it turned out
Blain was the one lying and when Natasha found this out she felt
horrible but did she apologise to Leo, no she didn't, which has
annoyed me.
The
whole thing caused me a great deal of upset, I confided in my mother
who says my sister overheard what we were talking about and told her
daughter, anyway someone told another sister who said something about
it that really caused me to become depressed and to feel like I can't
trust anyone.
I
was in such a state over the weekend that Tim and the girls became
very worried about my state of mind, however, I realised that I
hadn't been taking one of my depression medications, so that may have
been the problem, only time will tell.
I
am like 95% done with Christmas shopping, as I shop all year around.
I will start work on the Christmas cards this weekend hopefully. I
will also have to sort out the Mrs Claus presents I send out during
the next week or so.
Christmas
Day will be spent with my parents and siblings as per usually and
Boxing Day Tim & I, along with Natasha, Blain, Jessica & Leo
are going to Kathy-Lee's place for our Christmas lunch in past years
the girls and grandchildren would come here but I am not really in a
condition to cook a baked lunch. So Kathy-Lee has said she would have
the lunch at her place.
The
last few days I have been working on my Christmas cards and I am
slowly getting them done. I also have managed to get the house
starting to look like Christmas with the aid of decorations, although
I still have more to do, it is just hard to do on my own and yeah the
girls say they will help but they haven't done so yet.
Well
tht is enough of my boring news for this letter until next time take
care and write when you can.
Jo-Anne
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