Little Control

Life is so hard lately I can't go shopping alone I really need Jessica with me as she is such a big help. I have little control over my life or body. I have to rely on someone to do stuff for me., like dress me, prepare food for me. Even at times feed me because I keep dropping my food.

I shake from head to foot inside and out 24/7, I cannot stand for more then 2 minutes before my back aches. I have arthritis in my knees but the pain isn't what makes walking difficult, it is the fact that I generally don't pick my feet up when I walk. I know I should and I do for a few steps shuffling along again. So how far can I walk about a dozen steps.

Sending a text message on my phone is very difficult, which is why I often send a voice message as it is easier for me.

You may be thinking that I am typing this ok but not like I used to, I type slower often using one hand only because my right hand jumps around so much.

Yes I am depressed, yes I am on medication for it, but there are so many bad days lately.

My Health

I am only 56 and I often feel like a burden on my family and yes no one has ever called me that but it is how I feel, I often have trouble doing stuff like dressing myself feeding myself walking or even just standing everything hurts and I wonder why me.......

My body shakes from head to foot inside and out 24/7, there is nothing that can be done, no treatment or medication I can take to ease it.

I have arthritis in my knees, hip and fingers which causes pain when I stand or try and walk. I also have a lot of back pain so have trouble sitting as well.

When I posted the first bit of this on Facebook these are the responses I got.

Sandra Crawford Oh sis this makes me sad! we love you have thought about you a lot lately since I've had my arm pain bulging disc in my C6 C7 nerve the pain from my neck down my arm to my fingers is so bad I can't hold things keep dropping things....I think of you and mum and how hard everyday life things are hard for you it makes me so upset! I know Tash has been a great help to you living close now that's good my said she like me and runs up to help where she can which is great ... love U sis xxo

Natasha Tinkabell Meadows 2 the most beautiful Mum ever. U are NOT a burden, nor will u ever be a burden.
I love u with all my heart ?
I look at u n see a very strong beautiful woman who is now going through something big in her life n still stand here with a smile on her face. Everyone has bad days where they may feel that way but as long as u always remember U ARE NOT A BURDEN ???

Dad is right but most of all u have a husband n 3 pain in the ass daughters, with 4 crazy grandkids that look at u n wonder. How did we get so lucky 2 have u in our life’s? ???

Tim William You're family will ALWAYS be here for you